One less thing is my new motto!!

I have been working with my family and a really close friend on getting my house clean and organized.  I was so overwhelmed that I just couldn't get started. After a solid year of adding 4 kids to our household and yard saling like a crazy women this house is bursting at the seams!! I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!  So knowing that I was truly about to lose my mind, and was so bummed I could hardly get out of bed I finally reached out to ask for a little bit of help.  Now don't get me wrong I don't have unrealistic expectations, there are 9 people and 3 dogs in this house, so my house is never going to be picture perfect.  I don't want perfection I just want comfort and a place for most everything, I am tired of needing a paper and not being able to find it, or losing important things, not being able to find my camera, the kids never being able to find there stuff..... So the step I took reaching out really gave me a push and that weekend we purged and got alot of stuff done.  Still have a long way to go but hopefully this week we can get the homeschool room and my bedroom done..... Don't even ask about our garage right now, everything we purged we put out there for a future garage sale.  Ugh.... love going to them but hate having them!  (seems like that right there might be a huge part of my problem!!) 

Adoption Home study!!

We have had so many milestones in this foster/ adopt process!!  I know from the bottom of my heart that this is God's plan for our family.  It has been an emotional journey but so worth it.  I have felt him supporting us and guiding us this entire time.  We have started our adoption homestudy and I am so glad, I didn't realize how stressed out I was having that hanging over my head truly was...  Knowing someone is coming into your home that makes a final decision about wheter or not kids you love with all of your heart can remain with you.... Holy cow!!  I have had to keep reminding myself through this whole process that GOD HAS GOT THIS!!  It is not in my control it is in his hands!!  

So we have started the homestudy and the gentlemen that is doing is a person that has already adopted from the system and is amazing.  What a relief!!  I am so glad to be in the final stages of this journey and I am so grateful to God for seeing fit to add such amazing children to complete our family.  It is definately not always easy but nothing that is worthwhile is ever without hardship!!  We still have many steps to finish this journey but at least now we have and end in sight!!

Epiphany!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (on so many levels)

I just love PWOC!! I am taking the Divine Surrender class and today was just absolutely amazing and convicting at the same time.  I have misunderstood what it means to submit to my husband for the last 15 years.  We are bombarded with worldly views on what it is to be a wife and it is all straight from satan to undermine the marriage that God wants us to have. I am so amazed at how much I learn from these amazing women.

 Fellowship is definately and important part of walking with the Lord.  I have also learned recently that if God gives me the feeling that a friendship is not one that is he has ordained I am going to run as fast as I can in the other direction.  I got burned really badly by someone that was supposed to be my friend.  I was busy and taking care of my large family and she decided that not only was that not good enough for her that she needed to be ugly and hateful on top of it all.  I was trying to step out gracefully but with some people I guess that isn't good enough.  And for some reason she decided that is was okay to bring my children into her drama and try to attack my kids.  I do not care if people want to sit around talking about me and being hateful but it is another thing to bring my children into it.  Some women never grow up and stop being in middle school.  She knew the only way to hurt me is to hurt my children and that is what she did.  The pyscho couldn't hurt me with her ugliness because for me to care about someones opinion I have to have at least a little bit of respect for them.

So done with Wysteria lane and all the desperate housewives bs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

I can't believe it has been 15 years already!!

A couple of weeks ago was our 15 year anniversary!! It was amazing, we had so much fun.  I got to plan this year and because of all the craziness (and because i procrasinate)  I ended up planning it the night before!!! Everything fell into place at the very last minute and we had a good friend volunteer to stay at our house with all the kids!! Brave people because they have 4 of there own!!  We got to go to the Stratsphere and renew our vows at the top.  It was so fun!! We then rode the Big shot which was super freaky.  We enjoyed our stay at the hotel and gambled a little bit (penny slots...).

It was an amazing wedding anniversary and it was so nice to spend the entire day and night with hubby with no distractions and just focus on each other.