Check this out.... She says things better than I ever could have!!
http://itsalmostnaptime.blogspot.com/2010/02/i-dont-want-my-children-to-be-happy.html
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Time is flying!!
Wow it is crazy it has almost been a month since I last posted. Life in this household has been intense. It never seems to slow down...... With two teenagers and a preteen add a 9 year old who's personality can be larger than life, plus a 6 year old who doesn't think she ever has to listen to anyone plus a two year old who is into everything and sneaky as can be and the cherry on the top is the 4 month old who is a fussy pants alot of the time................. I am about to lose my mind at times!! That is why God made kids so cute, so when you were at the point to lose it they would do something cute to remind you what a precious gift it is to have and raise children!!
Satan really seems to be attacking me spiritually, I know with all of my heart I need to spend time in his word and in prayer and when I do so I am so much happier and a much better Mommy.... So why is it so hard for me to get into any kind of routine with my bible studies let alone a routine in the rest of my life. I have been fighting this battle with routines for soooooo long. I have great ideas but when it comes right down to it, I never stick to it. I use excuses like the baby kept me up so I am going to sleep in a little bit or anything else I can think of. He has also been using the distractions of worry, finances, moving etc.... When I know in my heart of hearts that those things while they are important God will always and has always seen to it we have way more than we could ever need!
My Goal this week is to come up with and stick to some sort of morning routine.... Getting up before my kids to have my time with God and my coffee before the chaos starts!! So unlike what I ususally do which is come up with some complex plan that is overwhelming my goal is only to get up by 7 am and have 30 min with God in the morning!!!!! I would like to also add getting dressed first thing and being ready for the day. If I can do that little bit maybe things will start falling more into place and I won't be so overwhelmed daily!!
Please anyone reading this, Please pray for me to overcome this pure laziness in the mornings so I can function better for my family!!! We could also use some prayers in that we are going to be moving this year and have a house to sell so we can maybe buy a house in TX. Please pray for my childrens hearts and for God to give me the wisdom in training and leading them to him. Please pray for wisdom in the social workers, judges and families in our adoption situations. Please just pray for us God will know what we need.
Satan really seems to be attacking me spiritually, I know with all of my heart I need to spend time in his word and in prayer and when I do so I am so much happier and a much better Mommy.... So why is it so hard for me to get into any kind of routine with my bible studies let alone a routine in the rest of my life. I have been fighting this battle with routines for soooooo long. I have great ideas but when it comes right down to it, I never stick to it. I use excuses like the baby kept me up so I am going to sleep in a little bit or anything else I can think of. He has also been using the distractions of worry, finances, moving etc.... When I know in my heart of hearts that those things while they are important God will always and has always seen to it we have way more than we could ever need!
My Goal this week is to come up with and stick to some sort of morning routine.... Getting up before my kids to have my time with God and my coffee before the chaos starts!! So unlike what I ususally do which is come up with some complex plan that is overwhelming my goal is only to get up by 7 am and have 30 min with God in the morning!!!!! I would like to also add getting dressed first thing and being ready for the day. If I can do that little bit maybe things will start falling more into place and I won't be so overwhelmed daily!!
Please anyone reading this, Please pray for me to overcome this pure laziness in the mornings so I can function better for my family!!! We could also use some prayers in that we are going to be moving this year and have a house to sell so we can maybe buy a house in TX. Please pray for my childrens hearts and for God to give me the wisdom in training and leading them to him. Please pray for wisdom in the social workers, judges and families in our adoption situations. Please just pray for us God will know what we need.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Calendars and Friends......
Wow, I sat down and tried to enter everything into my new and very awesome free online calender (Cozi) and I am so overwhelmed just looking at it. Sometimes I feel I am running around like a chicken with my head cut off!! Awana, PWOC, Girl Scouts X 3 girls, Soccer, Volleyball, independant study and the list goes on. This isn't including doc apts, dentist apts, whining crying babies and making meals, not to mention bill paying, laundry, meals, keeping kids on task and doing there chores, etc,etc........ Sometimes I wonder if I am going to end up committed. I don't always have time to be as attentive as I would like to be to my extended family and friends. In reality somedays I don't even get to take a shower and spend alone time with God. Looking at this Calendar reminded me of just how much I actually have going on and hurts me even more that someone could yell at me telling me how everything is all about me and what a selfish terrible person I am. It is not because I am selfish and self righteous (as someone recently told me), it is because I am barely staying afloat with what I have on my plate. I am forgetful, unorganized, messy and sometimes I am lazy and just want to sit and blog or read in my bathroom. Seems like God could've called someone better to be a mother to these 7 amazing kids but he must think I can do it, only with him holding me up am I going to make it!! True friends would never tear me down and expect me to put them above my ;family and although the lost friendships make me a little sad I do believe it is for the best. Some friendships are for a reason and some are for a season but letting go can still be very sad. I truly have never meant to hurt anyones feelings or make anyone angry so I will put a sorry out there.....into cyberspace.Sighing a big sigh of relief!
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