Calendars and Friends......

Wow, I sat down and tried to enter everything into my new and very awesome free online calender (Cozi) and I am so overwhelmed just looking at it. Sometimes I feel I am running around like a chicken with my head cut off!! Awana, PWOC, Girl Scouts X 3 girls, Soccer, Volleyball, independant study and the list goes on. This isn't including doc apts, dentist apts, whining crying babies and making meals, not to mention bill paying, laundry, meals, keeping kids on task and doing there chores, etc,etc........ Sometimes I wonder if I am going to end up committed. I don't always have time to be as attentive as I would like to be to my extended family and friends. In reality somedays I don't even get to take a shower and spend alone time with God. Looking at this Calendar reminded me of just how much I actually have going on and hurts me even more that someone could yell at me telling me how everything is all about me and what a selfish terrible person I am. It is not because I am selfish and self righteous (as someone recently told me), it is because I am barely staying afloat with what I have on my plate. I am forgetful, unorganized, messy and sometimes I am lazy and just want to sit and blog or read in my bathroom. Seems like God could've called someone better to be a mother to these 7 amazing kids but he must think I can do it, only with him holding me up am I going to make it!! True friends would never tear me down and expect me to put them above my ;family and although the lost friendships make me a little sad I do believe it is for the best. Some friendships are for a reason and some are for a season but letting go can still be very sad. I truly have never meant to hurt anyones feelings or make anyone angry so I will put a sorry out there.....into cyberspace.Sighing a big sigh of relief!