Two years already???

Wow two years ago today we got certified as foster parents and got our first foster kids! We got the call for K and A and had to rush to the MP station to pick up these two girls who had been up most of the night and were only partially dressed in clothes that didn't fit, hair a mess just looking a hot mess (not knocking anyone if u show up in the middle of the night at my house u will rarely see my kids in matching jammies and combed hair, they can usually pass as hobos). To top it off K was confused and scared, A on the other hand did really well and bonded immediately with Daddy. We had no idea what we were in for but we were prepared to do whatever God lead us too. We now had 5 girls, oh my. Of course at that point we had no idea that we would actually be adopting them,they were just cute little girls we were going to love. We thought for the first 6 months or so that they would end up going home. So we were just loving babysitters. The bio parents had there own things going on and were very young, some bad decisions and some things out of there control and then we were headed to adoption. Bio Mom was supportive after she found out the harm it was doing to K not knowing where she was going to be. K had a terrible time adjusting and had a lot of loyalty to her Mom, but as time went on she had love for us and her new family and didn't want to leave us either, very hard and confusing feelings for such a little girl. She acted out a lot and was very hard to handle. Once K knew she was staying things got much better. A is doing fine just getting through the horrible threes!

Now here we are two years later with adoptions finalized and being able to move on as a complete family! Truthfully though it is bittersweet though because through this whole process I have developed a close relationship with bio mom and some of the other family members and it is hard while my heart is rejoicing to know that there heart is breaking. We have said from the beginning that we would have an open adoption which was not required but was what was best for the girls. We still have not completely established what our open adoption is going to look like we r just kinda playing it by ear. I do know that it is kinda just feeling like a bigger family with more grandmas and grandpas. It is no longer just K and A the have three big sisters and a baby brother. I don't want anyone treating any of my children differently I love them all equally and I want everyone else to Love them all the same. This makes it sound as if we are having issues but that is exactly how our families treat the kids they are all equal and loved just the same.

We r now figuring out how to be a big blended family and it is not always easy but so very rewarding! I am still in shock that it has been two years already and I look forward to seeing the awesome individuals all six of my beautiful children r growing up to be!