We have had so many milestones in this foster/ adopt process!! I know from the bottom of my heart that this is God's plan for our family. It has been an emotional journey but so worth it. I have felt him supporting us and guiding us this entire time. We have started our adoption homestudy and I am so glad, I didn't realize how stressed out I was having that hanging over my head truly was... Knowing someone is coming into your home that makes a final decision about wheter or not kids you love with all of your heart can remain with you.... Holy cow!! I have had to keep reminding myself through this whole process that GOD HAS GOT THIS!! It is not in my control it is in his hands!!
So we have started the homestudy and the gentlemen that is doing is a person that has already adopted from the system and is amazing. What a relief!! I am so glad to be in the final stages of this journey and I am so grateful to God for seeing fit to add such amazing children to complete our family. It is definately not always easy but nothing that is worthwhile is ever without hardship!! We still have many steps to finish this journey but at least now we have and end in sight!!
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Epiphany!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (on so many levels)
I just love PWOC!! I am taking the Divine Surrender class and today was just absolutely amazing and convicting at the same time. I have misunderstood what it means to submit to my husband for the last 15 years. We are bombarded with worldly views on what it is to be a wife and it is all straight from satan to undermine the marriage that God wants us to have. I am so amazed at how much I learn from these amazing women.
Fellowship is definately and important part of walking with the Lord. I have also learned recently that if God gives me the feeling that a friendship is not one that is he has ordained I am going to run as fast as I can in the other direction. I got burned really badly by someone that was supposed to be my friend. I was busy and taking care of my large family and she decided that not only was that not good enough for her that she needed to be ugly and hateful on top of it all. I was trying to step out gracefully but with some people I guess that isn't good enough. And for some reason she decided that is was okay to bring my children into her drama and try to attack my kids. I do not care if people want to sit around talking about me and being hateful but it is another thing to bring my children into it. Some women never grow up and stop being in middle school. She knew the only way to hurt me is to hurt my children and that is what she did. The pyscho couldn't hurt me with her ugliness because for me to care about someones opinion I have to have at least a little bit of respect for them.
So done with Wysteria lane and all the desperate housewives bs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
Fellowship is definately and important part of walking with the Lord. I have also learned recently that if God gives me the feeling that a friendship is not one that is he has ordained I am going to run as fast as I can in the other direction. I got burned really badly by someone that was supposed to be my friend. I was busy and taking care of my large family and she decided that not only was that not good enough for her that she needed to be ugly and hateful on top of it all. I was trying to step out gracefully but with some people I guess that isn't good enough. And for some reason she decided that is was okay to bring my children into her drama and try to attack my kids. I do not care if people want to sit around talking about me and being hateful but it is another thing to bring my children into it. Some women never grow up and stop being in middle school. She knew the only way to hurt me is to hurt my children and that is what she did. The pyscho couldn't hurt me with her ugliness because for me to care about someones opinion I have to have at least a little bit of respect for them.
So done with Wysteria lane and all the desperate housewives bs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
I can't believe it has been 15 years already!!
A couple of weeks ago was our 15 year anniversary!! It was amazing, we had so much fun. I got to plan this year and because of all the craziness (and because i procrasinate) I ended up planning it the night before!!! Everything fell into place at the very last minute and we had a good friend volunteer to stay at our house with all the kids!! Brave people because they have 4 of there own!! We got to go to the Stratsphere and renew our vows at the top. It was so fun!! We then rode the Big shot which was super freaky. We enjoyed our stay at the hotel and gambled a little bit (penny slots...).
It was an amazing wedding anniversary and it was so nice to spend the entire day and night with hubby with no distractions and just focus on each other.
It was an amazing wedding anniversary and it was so nice to spend the entire day and night with hubby with no distractions and just focus on each other.
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Holy Moly is all I got to say....
Well folks it has been a really long couple of weeks...... Satan really attacked our family and brought us to our knees but we are not out for the count. We were not putting on our full armor and each one of us in our own way let him in. With God we are stronger than he can ever be as long as we protect ourselves properly. Our family is truly wounded by all that has happened but I truly believe God will help us pick up the pieces and be whole again.
We escaped from reality for a few days and reconnected as a family on our vacation to Disneyland. We had an amazing time and getting away from this Wonderland that is Fort Irwin was amazing. We needed the time away and the time together. Although now I need a vacation to recover from vacation!
Please pray for the hearts of my children that they can heal and overcome our imperfections and the worlds contstant negitive to grow in God's Love and be the people he intends for them to be. Please ask him to work on our hearts as parents and his children and help us to be who we are supposed to be in him. I need WISDOM!!
We escaped from reality for a few days and reconnected as a family on our vacation to Disneyland. We had an amazing time and getting away from this Wonderland that is Fort Irwin was amazing. We needed the time away and the time together. Although now I need a vacation to recover from vacation!
Please pray for the hearts of my children that they can heal and overcome our imperfections and the worlds contstant negitive to grow in God's Love and be the people he intends for them to be. Please ask him to work on our hearts as parents and his children and help us to be who we are supposed to be in him. I need WISDOM!!
Sunday, February 20, 2011
This is an amazing read!!
Check this out.... She says things better than I ever could have!!
http://itsalmostnaptime.blogspot.com/2010/02/i-dont-want-my-children-to-be-happy.html
http://itsalmostnaptime.blogspot.com/2010/02/i-dont-want-my-children-to-be-happy.html
Time is flying!!
Wow it is crazy it has almost been a month since I last posted. Life in this household has been intense. It never seems to slow down...... With two teenagers and a preteen add a 9 year old who's personality can be larger than life, plus a 6 year old who doesn't think she ever has to listen to anyone plus a two year old who is into everything and sneaky as can be and the cherry on the top is the 4 month old who is a fussy pants alot of the time................. I am about to lose my mind at times!! That is why God made kids so cute, so when you were at the point to lose it they would do something cute to remind you what a precious gift it is to have and raise children!!
Satan really seems to be attacking me spiritually, I know with all of my heart I need to spend time in his word and in prayer and when I do so I am so much happier and a much better Mommy.... So why is it so hard for me to get into any kind of routine with my bible studies let alone a routine in the rest of my life. I have been fighting this battle with routines for soooooo long. I have great ideas but when it comes right down to it, I never stick to it. I use excuses like the baby kept me up so I am going to sleep in a little bit or anything else I can think of. He has also been using the distractions of worry, finances, moving etc.... When I know in my heart of hearts that those things while they are important God will always and has always seen to it we have way more than we could ever need!
My Goal this week is to come up with and stick to some sort of morning routine.... Getting up before my kids to have my time with God and my coffee before the chaos starts!! So unlike what I ususally do which is come up with some complex plan that is overwhelming my goal is only to get up by 7 am and have 30 min with God in the morning!!!!! I would like to also add getting dressed first thing and being ready for the day. If I can do that little bit maybe things will start falling more into place and I won't be so overwhelmed daily!!
Please anyone reading this, Please pray for me to overcome this pure laziness in the mornings so I can function better for my family!!! We could also use some prayers in that we are going to be moving this year and have a house to sell so we can maybe buy a house in TX. Please pray for my childrens hearts and for God to give me the wisdom in training and leading them to him. Please pray for wisdom in the social workers, judges and families in our adoption situations. Please just pray for us God will know what we need.
Satan really seems to be attacking me spiritually, I know with all of my heart I need to spend time in his word and in prayer and when I do so I am so much happier and a much better Mommy.... So why is it so hard for me to get into any kind of routine with my bible studies let alone a routine in the rest of my life. I have been fighting this battle with routines for soooooo long. I have great ideas but when it comes right down to it, I never stick to it. I use excuses like the baby kept me up so I am going to sleep in a little bit or anything else I can think of. He has also been using the distractions of worry, finances, moving etc.... When I know in my heart of hearts that those things while they are important God will always and has always seen to it we have way more than we could ever need!
My Goal this week is to come up with and stick to some sort of morning routine.... Getting up before my kids to have my time with God and my coffee before the chaos starts!! So unlike what I ususally do which is come up with some complex plan that is overwhelming my goal is only to get up by 7 am and have 30 min with God in the morning!!!!! I would like to also add getting dressed first thing and being ready for the day. If I can do that little bit maybe things will start falling more into place and I won't be so overwhelmed daily!!
Please anyone reading this, Please pray for me to overcome this pure laziness in the mornings so I can function better for my family!!! We could also use some prayers in that we are going to be moving this year and have a house to sell so we can maybe buy a house in TX. Please pray for my childrens hearts and for God to give me the wisdom in training and leading them to him. Please pray for wisdom in the social workers, judges and families in our adoption situations. Please just pray for us God will know what we need.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Calendars and Friends......
Wow, I sat down and tried to enter everything into my new and very awesome free online calender (Cozi) and I am so overwhelmed just looking at it. Sometimes I feel I am running around like a chicken with my head cut off!! Awana, PWOC, Girl Scouts X 3 girls, Soccer, Volleyball, independant study and the list goes on. This isn't including doc apts, dentist apts, whining crying babies and making meals, not to mention bill paying, laundry, meals, keeping kids on task and doing there chores, etc,etc........ Sometimes I wonder if I am going to end up committed. I don't always have time to be as attentive as I would like to be to my extended family and friends. In reality somedays I don't even get to take a shower and spend alone time with God. Looking at this Calendar reminded me of just how much I actually have going on and hurts me even more that someone could yell at me telling me how everything is all about me and what a selfish terrible person I am. It is not because I am selfish and self righteous (as someone recently told me), it is because I am barely staying afloat with what I have on my plate. I am forgetful, unorganized, messy and sometimes I am lazy and just want to sit and blog or read in my bathroom. Seems like God could've called someone better to be a mother to these 7 amazing kids but he must think I can do it, only with him holding me up am I going to make it!! True friends would never tear me down and expect me to put them above my ;family and although the lost friendships make me a little sad I do believe it is for the best. Some friendships are for a reason and some are for a season but letting go can still be very sad. I truly have never meant to hurt anyones feelings or make anyone angry so I will put a sorry out there.....into cyberspace.Sighing a big sigh of relief!
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